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Day 14 of 2022: Not Doing Nothing.


Doing Nothing to Being More Creative 




End of the week, yay! If this was last year I would be looking forward to switching off and doing NOTHING for two days. I am very good at doing NOTHING, my default setting is being lazy and wasting time. You can argue that doing nothing and switching off is good for mental health. The brain does need to switch off and cool down after all. This yet became an excuse for not doing anything constructive or creative.


Writing something every day is one step in this, the other was to restart my attempts at sketching. While unemployed I dug out the pencils and sketch pad. My first attempts were rather as you expect.

View from My Window during the first Lockdown




I also wanted to think about getting proper guitar lessons. I have been playing for most of my life, never learned any songs though. J would bash around on the same chords. Part of that was I never had the inclination to be in a band. I did think about even asking a friend to teach me basic keyboards. This friend plays in an ambient techno group and is a deft keyboard player. I have not plucked up the courage to ask him though!


I have all these plans, part of me thinks I am taking on too much. What with the learning the code, and the demanding project I could be overreaching myself. Still, I would rather try, I do not want a return to last year's Brian. Wasting weekends and doing nothing.

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